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    Tuesday, February 9th, 2010
    12:56 am
    And sometimes I wonder, was it a day like any other day? Was it a night light any other night? What was it that made her go out that evening? What did she think about?

    It's difficult to understand people sometimes, but even more difficult to feel what they feel. How did her life really feel? After all of those years, after her family, and her child, and everything that had come before it, how did it come down to one night?

    Did she wake in the middle of the night? Was she up thinking into the late hours, as we all knew her to do? Sometimes drunk, other times sober, she'd always be up. And we'd always think she was crazy for trying to keep us up and talk to us. But what was really there? What was so terrible about the nights? What was so terrible about the dreams? What was so wrong with the world?

    But the tree was there. The answer was there. And forever, we will be left with nothing but questions. I hope with all of my heart, that you have found an answer. And after so many years, and without a single answered question, I guess I'm finally saying goodbye.
    Saturday, April 12th, 2008
    2:55 pm
    From moonorchid
    Only two rules: You must answer yes or no. You may not explain unless someone asks.

    Taken a picture naked? Yes
    Made money illegally? Yes
    Had a one night stand? No
    Been in a fist fight? Yes
    Slept with your best friend? Yes
    Had sex in a public place? No
    Ditched work to have sex? Yes
    Slept with a member of the same sex? Yes
    Seen someone die? Yes
    Ran from the police? Yes
    Woke up somewhere and not remember how you got there? Yes
    Worn your partners unmentionables? No
    Fallen asleep at work? Yes
    Used toys in the bedroom? Yes
    Ran a red light? Yes
    Been fired? Yes
    Been in a car accident? Yes
    Pole danced or done a striptease? Yes
    Loved someone you shouldn't? Yes
    Sang karaoke? Yes
    Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? No
    Laughed so hard you peed your pants? No
    Caught someone having sex? Yes
    Kissed a perfect stranger? Yes
    Shaved your partner? No
    Given your private parts a nickname? Yes
    Ever gone in public without underwear? Yes
    Had sex on a roof top? No
    Played chicken? Yes
    Mooned/flashed someone? Yes
    Do you sleep naked? No
    Blacked out from drinking? No
    Felt like killing someone? Yes
    Had sex more than 5 times in one day? Yes
    Been with someone because they were in a band? No
    Taken 10 shots of liquor in a day? Yes
    Shot a gun? Yes
    Gone outside naked? Yes
    Wednesday, February 27th, 2008
    2:01 am
    Privilege
    Borrowed from moon_orchid

    What Privilege Do You Have?

    • Father went to college (well, technical school)

    • Father finished college (see above)

    • Mother went to college

    • Mother finished college

    • Have any relative who is an attorney, physician, or professor.

    • Had more than 50 books in your childhood home

    • Had more than 500 books in your childhood home

    • Were read children's books by a parent

    • Had lessons of any kind before you turned 18 (SCUBA diving and music)

    • Had more than two kinds of lessons before you turned 18

    • The people in the media who dress and talk like me are portrayed positively (HAH! Have you seen Serbian people on TV?!?!)

    • Had a credit card with your name on it before you turned 18

    • Your parents (or a trust) paid for the majority of your college costs

    • Your parents (or a trust) paid for all of your college costs

    • Went to a private high school

    • Went to summer camp

    • Had a private tutor before you turned 18

    • Family vacations involved staying at hotels

    • Your clothing was all bought new before you turned 18

    • Your parents bought you a car that was not a hand-me-down from them

    • There was original art in your house when you were a child

    • Had a phone in your room before you turned 18 (I've NEVER had a phone in my room)

    • You and your family lived in a single family house (with my grandmother)

    • Your parent(s) owned their own house or apartment before you left home

    • You had your own room as a child

    • Participated in an SAT/ACT prep course

    • Had your own TV in your room in High School

    • Owned a mutual fund or IRA in High School or College (thanks to my brother)

    • Flew anywhere on a commercial airline before you turned 16 (if moving to the US counts...)

    • Went on a cruise with your family

    • Went on more than one cruise with your family

    • Your parents took you to museums and art galleries as you grew up

    • You were unaware of how much heating bills were for your family


    In the group exercise which was originally designed for college students, staff and faculty, everyone stands in a line and steps forward if any of these things are true for them.

    If we were all in a big room, I would have taken 8 steps forward. How about you? How many would you have taken? How many steps will your kids have taken by the time they're 18?

    Notice that each of these are things that were given to you or provided for you rather than things you necessarily earned yourself. The exercise instructions note that just because you've taken a lot of steps doesn't mean that you haven't worked hard to get where you are. But perhaps consider the things you've had handed to you that others didn't have.

    To participate in this blog game, copy and paste the above list into your blog, and bold the items that are true for you.

    (Exercise developed by Will Barratt, Meagan Cahill, Angie Carlen, Minnette Huck, Drew Lurker, Stacy Ploskonka at Illinois State University. If you participate in this blog game please acknowledge their copyright.)
    Tuesday, January 8th, 2008
    2:32 am
    An Evening at the Movies...
    I have just had the greatest evening in a very long time. Ian and Nichole just got moved in last night. Tonight, we all had dinner together at a rather cramped (yet cozy) little table in what I only recently realized was the dining room. :) Spaghetti, garlic bread, and pickled green beans (which are delicious by the way!).

    We then all sat down and watched The Bucket List (fantastic movie). And now, they're going to bed, and I'm going to be up for a while. And after all this, I realized something. For the first time since I moved out of my parents house, I had a "family night"...

    Moving to Portland was one of the greatest things that ever happened to me, because this was the first place in the US where I've ever genuinely been able to call home. Every time I leave and travel somewhere, I actually WANT to come back here.

    And having had this great evening, it reminded me of what it means to have a family. Whether it be your birth family or your chosen family, having a group of people who can all be comfortable around each other really means a lot. And spending an evening with a couple of people, and everyone just being comfortable and doing whatever it is they felt like doing is just so nice.

    So here it is, a written memento for me to remember the evening by. And I am so grateful to have been granted the privilege of recognizing a special moment WHEN it happens, rather than AFTER it happened.

    (For those soft-hearted tree-hugging friends of mine who might stumble upon this, yes, I can be sentimental at times... even if I will be worm-food one day. :) )

    Current Mood: content
    Monday, October 8th, 2007
    2:00 am
    The Good Old Days... Revisited
    I have thought and written of this before, but here I am at it again. The past, the wonderful romantic times of days gone by, the glamour and chivalry of another time, another place, the stories of days gone by, the unending talk of The Good Old days. It goes on and on, and yet with every day and every invocation of that cliché phrase, we're drawn closer to seeing the truth. Some might consider it an awful truth, others, a hard fact or even, perhaps, the burning flash of all-consuming cynicism. So what do these old days and old ways amount to?

    In the present, in a world where custom means nothing, and history is every bit as enchanting as a fairy tale (and every bit as true), the olden days are romantic stories. Yet at the time, they were nothing more than reality. They were no less hard and soulless to the witnesses at that time as our customs seem to us today. We think of grand dance halls, filled with ladies and gentlemen outfitted in their finest Victorian suits and dresses. Thick ties, long, slender coats resting atop the finest pressed pants and handmade leather shoes shining black. And the great ballooning hoop skirts sitting beneath tight, crushing corsets, a fitting frame for the subdued yet wildly provocative (for their day) hair styles and glamorous (again, for its day) makeup.

    But if you were such a fine gentleman, or such a fine lady, would you really be there experiencing the grandeur of the ball? Would you be cognizant of the sheer timelessness of your experience, of how stories of such events would be told and retold, magnified and embellished into near fantastic proportions? Of course not! For you, this would be yet another time, yet another place. You might spend your time considering the fact that your life, your place in this world, is hollow and meaningless. That you spend your time and your family's fortune on such events and for what? Is it some grand courtship ritual? Is it merely the precursor for today's "grand" drug-infused raves?

    Yet to consider yourself a pawn, or a player, in such an ongoing charade would be much too glamorous. After all, a pawn has a place and a use. A player has a purpose. But the people in question are mere ornaments. Inanimate baubles lighting up the otherwise hollow and lifeless rooms where these events take place. We are shiny metal trinkets, dangling from a long dead tree, tricked into standing up well into death and through the long period of decay. And when the needles begin to wither and brown, and our tree begins to fall, so do the ornaments with it. We age, and we die, and though we recall our times on that dying tree fondly, we perhaps see the truth behind the events.

    So is that it? Is all life so hopeless, so empty of meaning, so transient? Well, in a word, yes. But it's really not so bad. The events of our lives are no more insignificant than the lives themselves. And our lives, while largely meaningless in the truly GRAND scheme of things, are the greatest gift we're given and the greatest possession we have. So don't think of the romance of days gone by, of the grandeur of old traditions and the lack of the new. Think, instead, of what we have today. For as empty and as meaningless as it may seem today, it will be spoken of fondly, as yet another shining beacon of our supposed greatness for years to come.

    We will not and can not often realize what wondrous times we're living in while we have them. Yet with the inevitable flow of time these simple experiences and memories will be granted a new greatness. A new clarity and symbolism to be carried on well beyond our time. The stuff of legends and fodder for cynical realists for generations to come.

    Current Mood: contemplative
    Thursday, July 19th, 2007
    10:47 pm
    Brief Travel Update
    Update (7/30/07): Finally have finalized dates for Colorado. See below

    So it's been quite a while since I've updated the site. The time that I was doing most of my blogging I couldn't actually access my site, and since then I've fallen back into the pattern of not updating. So here's a brief update now. Nothing geeky, just personal stuff.

    In the last 2 and a half months, I've spent roughly 3 weeks at home. So here's a brief breakdown:

    5/14 - 5/20 Chicago
    5/22 - Seattle
    5/24 - 5/29 Los Angeles
    5/29 - 6/2 Chicago
    6/2 - 6/23 Bishkek, Kyrgyzstan
    6/23 - 6/24 Chicago
    6/30 - 7/1 Seaside, OR
    7/12 - 7/15 Bike trip (Oregon, Idaho, Wyoming)
    7/15 - 7/31 Colorado

    I'm hoping to do quite a bit more traveling in the near future, but money is beginning to become an issue at this point, so I may have to stay put and work for a little while before I take off again. Though I have to admit that I haven't been quite this happy in a very long time.

    Granted, individual days can, at times, be kind of rough, but the whole experience has been outstanding. I've found that I really enjoy being in different places and with different people all the time. This coming from a guy who had been known to go for a month at a time without ONCE leaving the apartment. That was about 4 lifetimes ago.

    I've definitely got more to say about each of the individual trips, but that's going to wait for another time. It could be 15 minutes from now if I get bored, or I may never get around to it. We'll see. :)

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    Current Mood: bored
    Wednesday, June 20th, 2007
    6:04 pm
    Only a few days left...
    I can't believe I only have two more days left here. It's strange because I feel like I just got here, and yet so much has happened in the last few weeks that I also feel like I've been here forever. Either way, this was a truly amazing trip. It's hard to describe in words (though they're what I'll mainly have to make due with), but this is nothing at all like what I expected... and it's even less like anything anyone who I talked to prior to the trip might have expected.
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    Friday, June 15th, 2007
    12:10 pm
    Hiking!
    I get to go hiking today! And not the "Please stay on the trails" kind of "hike" where you walk through a park for a few hours. Not the "please remain close to the guide at all times" kind of hike. And definitely not the, "wear comfortable shoes because we'll be hiking through the mall all day" kind of hike. No, this is a different kind of hike...

    I also get to go camping today (as part of the hike). And not the "Lets load up 10 cars with as many coolers of booze as we can manage and waay too much food, and 9 bedroom mega-tents with AC and queen size beds" either. Or, "lets park the RV near a body of water with nice electrical, water and sewage hookups and call it camping" either. No, this is a different kind of camping...

    This camping/hiking is the REAL kind of camping and hiking. The kind where you drive down a road until you see a not-too-steep area of the glacier-covered mountain you're about to climb, then go off-roading for 30 minutes to get to the base of it. Then you pull out the backpack that has your place to sleep, stuff to wear, and stuff to eat for the next 3 days, put it on your back, and start walking.

    You set up a tent in sub-zero temperatures and brave the 90 MPH winds while sleeping contentedly. After you wake up in the middle of the night to the sound of a bear sniffing the tent, you jump out in your boxers and take the bear on in hand-to-hand combat until he lies bloodied and beaten at your feet, and then have bear-burgers for breakfast! Yeah, THAT kind of hiking!

    (Well, ok, maybe that last paragraph is a LITTLE exaggerated. Just barely exaggerated... it just has a touch of... dramatic effect... really... *coughs* :) )

    To be fair, it is hiking and not mountaineering (which would be even cooler, but I'm probably going to do that on Mt. Hood this fall), but it's more than enough considering how much I've allowed myself to eat over the last month or so. :) So it should definitely kick ass. If I don't make it back by Monday, just assume that the bear won. :)

    Now I'm off to pack!
    Wednesday, June 13th, 2007
    1:38 pm
    Kyrgyzstan to date
    So I must say Kyrgyzstan so far is very different from what I expected. It's an absolutely gorgeous country. Last Friday, in the same day, I went from being in a snowstorm to swimming and tanning on a beach (at the 5th deepest lake in the world no less, Issyk Kul). The countryside is distinctly Soviet overall. There are small villages and the such that look quite rustic, yet they all have electricity, plumbing, etc. Also in the grand Soviet tradition, there are lots of enormous trucks belching thick black smoke, and more dirt roads than you can shake a stick at.

    I must say though, that it doesn't exhibit any of the third-worldiness (is that even a word? Of course not, but I'll use it anyway) that you see in places like Cuba, Jamaica, etc. There are no beggars on the streets, there are no people living in lean-to's with tin roofs, and I haven't seen anyone that looks half-dead from starvation.
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    Thursday, March 22nd, 2007
    10:58 pm
    More to come... maybe... :)
    This post will mark what is, I hope, a resurgence in my introspective writing. As my posts have grown progressively more technical and digestible (to geeks at least), and as my blog has grown, well, more "blog-like", with quick short posts, I have begun to leave off the more in-depth writings that were once the mainstay of my LiveJournal. While they are likely of little interest to anyone but myself, they're important milestones in my life, to remind me of where I was, what I was doing, and what I was thinking at various stages. This sort of reflection has proven to be of great value to me personally as the inevitable flow of time appears to be in a perpetual state of positive acceleration.

    (My high-school physics teacher, Mr. Vermillion, would be glad to know that, after all these years I have still not forgotten his lectures on the word "deceleration", preferring instead to refer to it in the scientifically correct form of "negative acceleration". Yes, I'm a geek. :) )

    Current Mood: thoughtful
    Thursday, March 15th, 2007
    12:44 pm
    Being Environmentally Friendly
    Russel Coker brought up an interesting meme about things to do for the environment. Seems like a good idea, so here we go:

    Instructions


    A. Copy the list below to your own journal and

    Bold the actions you are already taking
    Underline the actions you plan to start taking
    Italicize the actions that don't apply to you

    B. Add one (or more) suggested action(s) of your own

    C. Leave a comment here, so that the original author can track the meme to your journal and copy your suggested action(s) back to the master list.

    Actions





      1. Replace standard incandescent light bulbs with compact fluorescent light bulbs

      2. Choose energy efficient appliances -- I mostly buy newer appliances, but I have to admit I don't usually check for enegry efficiency.

      3. Wash clothes in cold(er) water

      4. Turn the thermostat of your hot water tank down to 50°C (125°F) -- Don't have access to the hot water tank in my apartment.

      5. Install a programmable thermostat (or turn the heat down over night and when you're out of the house) -- I sometimes forget to turn the heat on in the first place, does that count? :)

      6. Register with the Canadian Marketing Association's Do Not Contact Service to reduce the amount of junk mail delivered to your house.

      7. Eat less meat (particularly feedlot beef) -- I love beef. Though I've been contemplating the whole vegetarian thing for a long while now.

      8. Walk, bike, carpool or take public transit as often as possible -- I don't even own a car, so CHECK!

      9. Make sure you know what can be recycled in your area, and try to recycle as much household waste as possible

      10. Compost using an outdoor compost bin or an indoor vermicomposter -- 99% of my waste is just packaging. If it can be composted, I've already eaten it. :)

      11. Clean or replace filters on your furnace and air conditioner -- No access

      12. Buy local, organic or fair trade food where possible

      13. Reduce air travel -- I only fly for >2000 mile trips usually

      14. Wrap your water heater in an insulation blanket

      15. Use a clothesline instead of a dryer whenever possible

      16. Plant a tree

      17. Buy fresh foods instead of frozen (Frozen food uses 10 times more energy to produce)

      18. Keep your car tuned up and your tires inflated to their optimal pressure -- I'll one-up that one. I got rid of my car altogether.

      19. Use biodegradable dishwashing liquid, laundry soap powder, etc. -- For those who can get it, Seventh Generation makes a great line of products.

      20. Drink tap water (filtered if necessary) rather than buying bottled water

      21. Turn the tap off while brushing your teeth

      22. Unplug seldom-used appliances and chargers for phones, cameras, etc., when you're not using them -- Only because I have too many cords and not enough plugs. :)

      23. Plug air leaks and drafts around doors and windows with weatherstripping -- Erm... we kind of leave the windows open year round so... :)

      24. Switch from disposable to reusable products: food and beverage containers, cups, plates, writing pens, razors, diapers, towels, shopping bags, etc.

      25. Consider garage sales, Freecycle, eBay, or borrowing from friends/family before buying a new tool or appliance -- This one is the least likely to happen. I love my new stuff. :)

      26. Reuse bathwater, maybe to flush the loo, water the garden, etc. -- I don't have a tub. (Stand-up shower only)

      27. Make sure your roof is well-insulated -- Maybe I should bold this one... I have 15 floors worth of insulation above me. :)

      28. Always wear a jumper/sweater and socks indoors unless it's warm enough outdoors to go without both -- And slippers

      29. Run your vehicle on biofuel/sustainable fuels -- Anyone know of a biofuel conversion kit for a Yamaha R1? :)

      30. Set up a grey water barrel to use when clean water isn't necessary - grey water should never be stored. It contains chemicals that are used as food for bacteria. Put grey water on your garden immediately.

      31. Install tanks to collect rain-water from your roof for watering the garden, washing your car, etc.

      32. Turn off the light when you leave a room -- Sometimes I get the feeling I'm the only one who was taught to do this growing up.

      33. Sign up for paperless billing whenever possible









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    Thursday, February 8th, 2007
    5:27 pm
    Wanted Ads
    Ok, this is too good to not share (and translate). This includes the originals (in Serbo-Croatian) as well as my English translation of them. If anyone has any corrections please let me know:


    • Izdajem sobu, ploče, knjige, tajne, prijatelje, rodbinu i državu.

    • Selling [out] my room, albums, books, secrets, friends, family and country.

    • Menjam žutog kanarinca za svinju od 150 kg. Boja nije bitna.

    • Looking to trade a yellow canary for a 150 kg hog. Color not important.

    • Mlad student, 26 godina, ne puÅ¡i, ne pije, ne juri ženske, rado bi promenio način života.

    • Young 26 year old student, doesn't smoke, drink, or chase after women, gladly willing to change lifestyle.

    • Ako neko želi da ostavi alkohol i cigare, nek' ih ostavi kod mene.

    • If anyone is looking to leave alcohol and cigarettes behind, you can leave them with me.

    • Vi imate Sony PlayStation, ja imam vreme, znanje i iskustvo. Za simbolicnu naknadu prelazim najteže nivoe igara.

    • You have a Sony PlayStation. I have time, knowledge and experience. For a symbolic gesture of goodwill from you, I will gladly beat the most difficult levels of games on your behalf.

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    Current Mood: amused
    Thursday, September 28th, 2006
    11:23 pm
    Crazy?
    I looked at the man in the mirror... and he looked back at me...

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    Current Mood: crazy
    Friday, September 22nd, 2006
    11:31 pm
    Sausage, anyone?
    I had thought, when I was younger, that I knew all about lousy parties. After all, most parties were, by definition, lousy. Then I went to a few good ones and began to think that maybe this whole deal wasn't so bad. The good ones, in quality even if not in quantity, outweighed the bad ones. This was until I went to my first sausage-fest. It was only then that I got a true feel for just how bad things could get. Or was it? Shortly thereafter, I got to experience the worst sausage-fest of all. Not just a party with all guys, but, even worse, a party with ALMOST all guys. One or two unlucky (or lucky, depending on how desperate they are) girls showing up. That's when it gets REALLY REALLY REALLY sad. You want to see otherwise respectable people at their worst, it's just the place to do it.

    And for a long time, I believed that I had experienced the worst of it. Until I found the only thing that could make the situation any worse. One girl, many guys, and they're all OLD. Now no disrepect meant to any folks out there older than myself, but when you're surrounded by a group of 30-something guys and one female, that's rock bottom. At least, that's what it looks like now. I shudder to think how bad it COULD get from here. Not only does it make me extremely disinclined to make any advances towards her for fear of being tainted by the overwhelming stench of sausage, it makes me downright paranoid of catching some strange disease and waking up tomorrow only to find myself old. I'm left with this overwhelming FLEE response setting in, instructing me to get the hell out of there before I contract something incurable.

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    Current Mood: sleepy
    Friday, September 15th, 2006
    7:49 pm
    Ouch!
    So I had a bit of a mishap today. Involving me, my bike, and some very hard pavement. Long story short, the bike's pretty banged up (but should be pretty easily repairable), and I'm pretty banged up, but nothing's broken. I high-sided at low speed (about 30), went flying off of the bike, with the bike sliding down the road behind me. Whacked my head on the pavement hard enough to take out a pretty large chunk of my helmet.

    All I can really say is thank god for my gear. Had I not been wearing a helmet, I'd be dead. Had I not had my leathers on I would probably have a broken shoulder or elbow and road rash all over my left side and back. As it was, I've got a rug-burn on my elbow from the inside of the jacket, a pretty bruised hip, and a few small scratches on my lower back where my jacket got pulled up while I was sliding down the road. My left thumb lost the top layer of skin due to, as far as I can tell, my hand getting caught under/between something very heavy and very hard. I had my gloves on, and the thumb is easily the most padded part. The leather is all scuffed up, and my thumb looks like it has a layer of sloppy celophane wrapped over it, which just happens to be torn skin. But thankfully it was just the surface, so there's not much pain and no blood or other fluids leaking out. :)

    Having been through this now, I REALLY REALLY REALLY can't imagine anyone NOT wearing a good helmet AND plenty of good gear. Without my helmet I'd be dead, no doubt about it. Without my gear, I'd probably still be in the hospital. As it was, I spent an hour and a half in the emergency room for them to verify that I didn't hurt my neck or back or anything else that wasn't immediately apparent, and then they sent me home. Now I'm taking Advil and putting ice on my hip and I should be able to ride again in a few days.

    I'm not sure how bad the damage on the bike is, but from what the motorcycle cop who responded to the scene told me, it looks like I'll just need a new shift lever and maybe a new clutch lever. Everything else LOOKS to be cosmetic.

    As for the actual accident, it was just me. No cars or any other traffic. I pulled out onto the street from the gas station, and as I was giving it gas either I hit a patch of oil or a rock or a pothole or something, and the rear tire broke loose and slid out to the left, causing the bike to slide sideways down the street. (Front wheel facing the sidewalk) That threw me off the top and down the street with the bike sliding down behind me. It ended up bumping me and pushing me up onto the sidewalk as it slid, but, thankfully nothing worse. So yeah, interesting day today...

    Helmet Damage

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    Current Mood: sore
    Wednesday, September 13th, 2006
    6:05 pm
    Wow
    So that was quite a trip. Not literally, just figuratively. I just met someone who I've known for 8 years. A guy who I met ages ago playing Tribes that I just stayed in touch with over the years. I've known him longer than almost all of my present-day friends. And to meet him for the first time face to face it's quite an experience. Just one of those big shockers. It's this weird combination, of "I really know this person" and "I've never met this person before" all at once. But it was quite fun either way. Beer, (LOTS of) food, and hanging out. Good times overall.

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    Current Mood: full
    Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
    4:06 pm
    Labor Day Weekend
    So I just had a wonderful weekend. Starting out by getting 4 jumps in (and passing all 4 on the first try!) on Saturday, and then extending into 3 days of friends, food, drink, and debauchery. While the wild events of the weekend are certainly worth chronicling in greater detail (and I intend to do just that in another post), the first thing that needs to be addressed was a discovery made this weekend about myself and people in general.

    This weekend consisted of me hanging out with 9 other Serbian folks (and a Scot to boot) in a rented house on the beach. Great fun to be had throughout to be sure. But something unexpected happened. The weekend didn't suck, and it felt extremely nice and relaxing and weird at the same time. It felt weird because I hardly ever have a weekend like that. I've had long weekends with friends before, but they've been very different. I think what was different here was that the house was filled with people who shared the same "village" mentality that I have and very few, if any, Americans possess.

    What it comes down to is the world not revolving around you. The world revolves around something that you are a part of, but not you as an individual. The fierce individualism that has made the US such a great world power has also greatly eroded the social customs of the people who live here. There are expressions like "it takes a village to raise a child" that are known in the US, but they're never understood. They're usually just quaint expressions picked up from some far-off tribal society. But these customs are what have kept people surviving for thousands of years. And, for me at least, there's just something extremely calming about being immersed in the experience.

    I have layers and layers of "filters" in my mind that take all of the experiences of the world and sort them and massage them before delivering them to my consciousness so that I can deal with them in an appropriate manner. This type of experience, however, just bypasses all of those filters. There's no thought of any sort involved. It's a wonderful example of me being in tune with the world around which so rarely happens in day to day life. And it is oh, so relaxing.

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    Current Mood: happy
    Tuesday, August 29th, 2006
    8:43 pm
    WooHoo!
    It works! Yes, I'm a geek. We now return you to your regularly scheduled non-geek programming. :)

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    Current Mood: accomplished
    8:39 pm
    WordPress to LiveJournal gateway
    Ok, so noone but me will care here... but... if this works, then all of my WordPress entries should now automatically get sent to my LiveJournal as well. We'll see if it works I guess!
    Monday, August 28th, 2006
    11:10 pm
    The Year in Review
    I've been trying to get away from using LJ as much as possible so this went on my blog, but it really should be in both since it's more of a "journal" entry than a simple blog entry. Just a not-so-brief blurb about the last 14 months of my life:

    The Year in Review
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